hashims-wifey

To Hashim,
I have made this website for you, and you only, to tell you...to make you realise...to let you know that you are the most special gift God has ever given me. In my whole life I have never loved somone as I have loved you. The happiness that you generate in my heart is so strong, so passionate it makes me want to cry.

I hope when you read this it will touch your heart, i hope you will feel in the depth of your being, that you feel the same. I want to start with how i have felt in the last few months. When you find someone who means so much to you, like you do, you will do anything to not let them go. I will never let an argument lay overnight, I will always turn back and back sure it is all OK. You know that from the experiences we have had.

it hasnt been easy Hashim, so many people have hated us, put us down, no only have other people been jelous and tried to hold back our love but also our religions...our colour skin...our cultures....our society. I dont care what anyone says, your Muslim, Im proud of that, i dont think you would be half the man you are if it wasnt for the fact that your religion makes sure that you have respect for people, for your parents, making you loyal to me. You are the truest, most real and loving man I have ever met. You never cease to excite me, love me, suprise me, cheer me up, make me laugh, give me the best moments in my whole life.

Hashim, a few months ago I cried myself to sleep, I had a longing in my heart, a feeling wieghing me down in the best way...I have never felt a love like I did that day in my whole life. I was so happy. I knew at that point that i wanted to spend my whole life with you. From within i have known that for along time...I have always been shy of telling you thing first...in case you thought i was being over loving or silly or if you didnt agree. But when you told me you wanted me to be the mother of your children i was over come with bliss...a beautful feeling....that feeling that encloses your heart it almost hurts.

That time that you dumped me...when you were unsure...I nearly tore my heart out...i couldnt believe it....it was like my whole being had been ripped apart....my whole self was pointless...the beautiful world and everything it stood for which i loved no longer meant anything...All i wanted was to be yours as i have always been. God, i know wanted me to be with you, with Dennis effents showed me that he wasnt my future, God showed me the way, but never once have i had an experince that has turned me off of you ... ever...even though i have lied in my bed pleanty of nights praying, yearning for God to give me a sign.

When you shine I shine...I Love you...I put my life and my blood on that. What are you to me...honestly?

You are the most beautiful person I have ever laid my eyes on..no other will ever compair to you....I swear to you im on the verge of tears thinking of how much you mean to me. Your beautiful, your tall, dark, handsum, fit, the most beautiful body i have ever seen and im soo sooo happy to be with you and to know that you trust me with all your heart. i feel so special.

You are kind, you are real, you are funny, intelligent, your strong willed, im so proud that your changed for me....do you know what that means to me?!? I never knew there was somone like you in this world....you earn respect everywhere you go, your confident, your fasionalbe, your known, you have lots of friends, far more than i do. :D

I love everything about you...to your ugly phumb :P (joking its gorgous) to your big hair . You have these beautiful eyes that look at me in a way i love so much, these beautifully shaped eyebrows and lips that are so soft and you know i mean that from the first time we kissed. A lovely strong nose that i absolutly love to bits....your beautiful colour skin , your strong arms and legs, your lovely body ... chest...stomach....****** and all the rest :)

I love the way you suprise me, treat me to things, i love it, wish you would do it more often. Whenever i have asked you to change somthing you have.

I will always be here for you Hashim...watever i do is not only for me but for you...I work hard in school for you...I dressw nice and look good for you only....my whole life is as it is because you came into it. Always trust me . Please.. Why would i ever ever! do anything to hurt you...i never would on purpose....always trust in me because i trust in you fully...never take advantage....never lie to me or whind me up badly because i know you like to lol. Hashim i will always be true to you...if i ever wasnt id tell you....( no need i never would )

I have so much memories i could right down but i will share them with you another time. For now i would just like to tell you that you are the one i want to be with forever. I hope ou feel that 100percent too...as i do ..I want you to feel the same. hold on im crying....

Baby, babi, bunnie i want so much....I want our parents to accept us...I want to marry you and have our cildren and bring them up....I want to maryr in a church....marry in a mosque...Bring up our children with love and respect for both christianty and islam....Teach them teachings from all the prophets, give them everything we did. Give them the opportunity to do more in their lifes we will ever be able to do. And most importantly i want you to be there with me .. supporting me through thick and thin, good and bad, health and illness, through our ups and downs, through the world from London to Somalia to America to Asia....I want you..I dont want anyone else. I want you hashim....All i want is you.

I love you. I love you... I L o v e you. My Somalian prince....my bunnie and my true love

Roisin xx

Well Just want to say that me and my man have been together now 10 months...and iv loved every second of it.

He really means alot to me....he is here...deep in my heart....and im so happy i have you ...babi if you ever get down come here and read this.

I want to be here for you always and i want you there for me too. I feel loved when im with you, needed, i feel beautiful, sexy, gorgous, lovely, protected and happy.

Hashim I want to be with you for along time and I hope you feel the same. Your my man and Ill never do anything to ruin that. I love you. I love your family. I love your friends.

Hope you love me and mine too.

Roisin xxx

I Love You

I know there is a feeling deep within,
Inside your heart. I want you to let me in,
I want to feel your anguish and pain,
Your love and kindness. Your kiss in the rain,
Allow me to be your woman, in good and bad.
How can I love you if you don’t talk to me when you’re mad?
Allow me to comfort you and help you,
If you ever have problems, ill see you through
I want you to trust me…fully...
And be able to confide in me
I know you know I love you
But I want to tell you now that
I’d do anything for you
Go in the sun, rain and snow too.
Do things for you even if it means pain
Because I’ve loved life ever since you came.

I love you

DEAR hashim you are my one and only lover, that has ever been and ever will be for a long time, you are my first true love, you have brought mass understanding into my life and meaning and worth while, you encourage me to be the best and never let me get depressed, helped me during times when I was very low due to many reasons, and because you believed in me and new I could be a beautiful person. n the end you waited and im glad you did because hopefully that patience has paid up. I love you for who your are, what you are, I don’t care that your the ideal boyfriend many people on the outside think, ur ideal in my heart and to close friends who know you, I know you are true and will never hurt me and my trust in you is more than you would believe. I want that level of trust to be the same there is no need for u to hesitate in thinking me untrue I will never hurt u purposely if iiov done it in the past im so sorry it will never happen again I can promise you that , from deep within my heart, and my memory, the first page, in the first chapter, is a picture of you and meeting you and the blossoming of a new relationship and on their the words are written " here begins a new life "

I love you so much, so so so much, please never forget, I wish we last forever, but if it doesnt happen it doesnt happen

All my love goes to you, wish you were here forever

I love you so much so much so so sooo much it grows always.

I find it so hard to move on, i keping crying, and wishing it was all good, but i know this is what needs to be done, what is wanted, and so i will live with it, and wish and dream that it had worked out in a different way. Ring me whenever you read this. I Need you so much :'(

Roisin McLaughlin, Your once to be Wife :(

18th of April 2007

Me and hash have been such a hetic last couple of months. We broke up in september and it was a really bad time for me personally, as you can see from the messages above I was distraught and only those closest to me know how bad it was for me. We were split up for nearly 5 months, but during that time, we still spent alot of time together, and finally I took him back because I realised he knew he had made a mistake, and we had both used that time well in being able to grow and change . We have been going back out now for nearly 4 moths and it has been the best few months I have had with hash for such along time. Our relationship is so different yet so similar and I love him so much now. Im doing my as levels and he is doing GCSEs so there is alot of work going on, but we are pulling through. Im so happy these days that its hard to even feel the happiness....If that makes sense :D I have come to realise personally that me and hash, I feel , were meant to be together, and I love him so much its untrue :D

Anyways keep safe everyone

Love you my hubby forever

Roisin xxxxx

HEY WELL, Back after a whole year. The date is the 31st of March 2008. ME and hash are still together at it has been roughly 2 years and 11 months. The relationship is so good, we are so different from how we used to be, but trust me it is so much better. Everytime I see him I get the biggest smile youll ever see, and we feel so relaxed and content with each other. there is complete trust, no need to worry about anything. He means eveything to me and my family and its amazing how far we have come. I love his family they are such lovely people and they treat me really well, and in my house is is literally a resident, he is always here. We are both 17 and both in the same 6form collage. We are everything, best friends, school class mates, peers, girlfriend and boyfriend... everything. Just love the way it is right now, you dont understand, it has felt like forever to come to a point like this, but its been worth the wait and its been worth the downs . We have both changed and for the better, and we are old enough now to know what we want and how to be happy and content. And with me thats being with you. Love you forever Hash xxxxxx

Enjoy the pictures from over the last year up till now.

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